Whew... beezy beezy beezy. always too short for rest, work AND play. I've given up my aqua-aerobics, too boring; i've completed my melayu class, but stil murmuring like an infant; went back to yoga; e only team-mate leaving this mth end (oh man!); room is stil messy w loads of cannot-fit-nicely clothes all over, n.. stil like to waste time checking junky emails n watch tv!

let's see. umm.. ok. went to see tarots tt day, monica confirmed everything in my head without me even speaking a word of my confusion. (hope it's not tt look on face tt gave me away!) she surprised me with other things too. the power of tarots. and its gd to receive some positive guidance when u need directions. she read:

work: i can stay on, but i need to learn to relax. the more anxious and perfectionist i am, the more things n details i'll miss out. cool. (ya la, maybe i dun need tarot cards to tell me tt, but stil.. ) n.. oh, i can be my own boss if i wan too *grinz*. i'll work hard!

love: i dunno how to love anyone. Pathetic. she's asked me to open my windows, if not even got love messenger come also cannot fly in. sigh, u think i dun wan meh.. but how. looking at these guys ard me.. sigh, suan le ba. anywayz, i'll try ok.

she has into me a book: Power of Subconscious Mind. quite a nice book. I seem to be able to handle situations better now. ya, crap. but e moral of the story is: monica and book is my means of clearing e bucket of doubts in my head. it's like clearing clotted blood vessels or clear ur um-um every morning. i've got back my directions n drive now. stay healthy. tt's wat. cheers!

hey man, if u r wat u think. nothing reali's very difficult. juz keep tt faith.