Whew... beezy beezy beezy. always too short for rest, work AND play. I've given up my aqua-aerobics, too boring; i've completed my melayu class, but stil murmuring like an infant; went back to yoga; e only team-mate leaving this mth end (oh man!); room is stil messy w loads of cannot-fit-nicely clothes all over, n.. stil like to waste time checking junky emails n watch tv!

let's see. umm.. ok. went to see tarots tt day, monica confirmed everything in my head without me even speaking a word of my confusion. (hope it's not tt look on face tt gave me away!) she surprised me with other things too. the power of tarots. and its gd to receive some positive guidance when u need directions. she read:

work: i can stay on, but i need to learn to relax. the more anxious and perfectionist i am, the more things n details i'll miss out. cool. (ya la, maybe i dun need tarot cards to tell me tt, but stil.. ) n.. oh, i can be my own boss if i wan too *grinz*. i'll work hard!

love: i dunno how to love anyone. Pathetic. she's asked me to open my windows, if not even got love messenger come also cannot fly in. sigh, u think i dun wan meh.. but how. looking at these guys ard me.. sigh, suan le ba. anywayz, i'll try ok.

she has into me a book: Power of Subconscious Mind. quite a nice book. I seem to be able to handle situations better now. ya, crap. but e moral of the story is: monica and book is my means of clearing e bucket of doubts in my head. it's like clearing clotted blood vessels or clear ur um-um every morning. i've got back my directions n drive now. stay healthy. tt's wat. cheers!

hey man, if u r wat u think. nothing reali's very difficult. juz keep tt faith.

A view fr a corner at Pusu Island (ha!). Went BBQ tt day. It was fun. A reali simple but gd one.

The older i get, the more i'm amazed by the different personalities i met.

got ppl cheerful on e outside, had a great career, but attempted suicide, twice.

another one smart n steady in handling projects n business developments, but dunno how to let go personal feelings against others.

some were self-centered, leaving little space for outside world, n some others took things for granted, thinking things wil always be e same coz it always has been.

i'm not sure if they realised their action has impact on those ard them. sigh.. on my part? maybe i shd be bolder n tell them in their face how irritating they r. or maybe i shd learn to let go. or maybe i'll send my feedback if they care. but if they dun .... let it be ba. The Beatles also like tt say. no one's purrfect ok?!

hoo.. *yawn* .. gd nitez..

Project Superstar

... 我一向坚持自己的信念. Although he's got the least votes this round, I still believe tt he'll make it one day... http://superstar.channelu.com.sg/project/male.htm

And here's Sal+Lyn's post to him:

Well, guess ask u not to be sad is really hard n too demanding...but hey!!! See how many supporters leaving messages at this hour! (Excluding some ignorant guys out there) My sis n I been supporting you since Quan Min n reali wanna see you on tv and stage in near future...PLEASE DO NOT GIVE UP UR DREAMS OKAY!!!
Last nite's performance was good...We like your new image! We can all see e Wu-Ha in those dance steps!

n... We wan more of Choong's smile!! =)

P/S: childish game? i'm merely showing support to people I like. do something u like too... ;)

=] have been dipping in the pool past weeks. nice to be in water again. took up aqua eh-lo-bics with the CC and went swim after work w friends. seow-on man! haha.. hey, cool your mind too!

Do you know enough?

Yes, I left the org, like, 2 years ago. Help raised funds for 3yrs 8mths. I knew it'srich. We all know it's very rich. But other than tt, can you tell me other things abt tt u knw abt NKF? Tell me what are all the near 1000 staff doing everyday? What's its mission.. and things it has done and going forward, what bigger plans does it has for the country, or even, the neighboring countries, the world...?

Things aside, he's a great leader. It is really a little heart-ache to see this "superstar", so full of pride and drive, who used to walk ard in the office building, now helpless in front of Singapore. Sad to see due the limited source of information, and in a fit of anger, ppl jus took chance to pour paint on him... does it help?

I am not denying tht's a lack of honesty and good management to the funds. Indeed, having so much funds, we can easily think of so many other community projects that this big brother can do to help it's fellow charities, help create awareness for need of volunteerism, more R&D, etc etc.. But in this instance, I saw a human's greed overtook his initial heart of innocence, heart of gold who wants to give. If he has stayed the same, he would hv rejected big salaries. If he hadn't lied, it wouldn't happen. I hv learnt, too, tt we should all keep our basic morals and principles.

But if only he has stayed the same... can you always? I'll leave it to watever parties to take care of the responsibility he should be paying for tht "greed". I really hope he'll learn his lesson and we all can move on... And, if lacking of rules/transparency/ accountability of public funds is the problem, I hope it is dealt with fairly across the charities/non-profits. If no rules are being set, dun tell me I'm wrong. I'm sure there are other many "same story". It's up to the teacher to catch those who cheated in class.

I'm more pro than I thot I wld be. things got so out of hand and ppl reacted so harshly tt I thot ... what the heck.

tt's always 2 side to the coin. have we try to see two sides before we judge things? ...

my pick

i did it again. I've conf w him all but pagination n went ahead to print 50 booklets. I reali think e words are visible. I thot I've cover it all by doing it earlier this yr. but i did wrong again. so i ask for advise. it says tt i'm too absent-minded, no vision, no planning, no relfection of my own journey this far; i'm in a fragaile stage now and no one can help me expect myself; running away wil not help me... Me, pls help me.

oh man! juz watched the long waited Initial-D!! It's reali nice! No... not just because Jay is in there, but it's reali an exciting and entertaining show..e many familiar faces rocks too! 10 of 10 popcorns!


jay @ my bus stop!!


InitialD on e pathway to Lido!