Friday, November 18, 2011

A wild dream come true

today is the last day of the conference.

the conference & exhibition spreads over 3 days. the preparation certainly took more than 3 months, and the idea & initiative was born over 3 yrs ago, when the bosses has a vision and a mission to bring this over to asia.

it was a long painful period of "morning sickness" for many involved. the 7 sub-committees were made up of many volunteer members; there were rounds and rounds of evening meetings; days and days of planning, building and scrutinizing. but it is a certainly a healthy baby born this day, tht we all forgot how long we took, and somehow, it's worth those "throwing-up" and moments of "giving-up".

a good leader is able to sell his dream and hope. he will gather and bring his group of people help make his dream come true with him and for him. he have to to bring these people on a journey which he may not necessarily traveled before. i hv to give it to him when it comes to "selling hope". seriously, why would anyone wanna come onboard? only the wild horse will run the desolate land.

i stil hv my sparks of fire. but i am afraid of spinning ard in circles again. a frog looking out of the well, what do i do now?

我对自己开了一枪


什么状况 其实不必讲
反正人来人往 每个人都有伤
什么难处 就让他随便滋长
反正世事无常 没必要在夜里翻墙
若不是真累了
怎允许让身体渐渐的褪色

我是什么颜色
是不是我选择的 那款狠狠的红色
那一夜 我对着自己开了一枪
我看着自己身上的伤
然后礼貌的 笑着说对不起把你弄脏
再补一枪
直到彻底毁掉我脸上的妆
直到看不见我等待的渴望
然后缓缓的轻轻的美丽的洒在地上

什么状况 其实不必讲
反正人来人往 每个人都有伤
什么难处 就让他随便滋长
反正世事无常 没必要在夜里翻墙
若不是真累了
怎允许让身体渐渐的褪色

我是什么颜色
是不是我选择的 那款狠狠的红色
那一夜 我对着自己开了一枪
我看着自己身上的伤
然后礼貌的 笑着说对不起把你弄脏
再补一枪
直到彻底毁掉我脸上的妆
直到看不见我等待的渴望
然后缓缓的轻轻的美丽的洒在地上

啊 有些话讲了等于没讲
再多的配合又怎样
若不是你在现场
那一夜 我对着自己开了一枪
我看着自己身上的伤
然后礼貌的 笑着说对不起把你弄脏
再补一枪
直到彻底毁掉我脸上的妆
直到看不见我等待的渴望
然后缓缓的轻轻的美丽的洒在地上

我想我心碎了
谢谢你那么的 安静的捧场

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Connecting My Dots

iGenius: How Steve Jobs Changed the World.

An over-due 42-min documentary which I hadn't have time to watch. Just like Steve has inspired the world, this featuring video speaks to me more than I expected. It was produced by Discovery Channel, and you can view the video here.

The clip introduces Steve from how he started his life when his biological parents put him up for adoption, growing up into teen, a music junky, a college drop-out and how he started his business in a garage with Steve Wozniak...we know the rest of the story.

What hit me was this snippet from his Commencement Address at Standford University, 2005:

"... Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."

I YouTubed the speech as well; watch him here. He shared with his audience three stories, and these are what I caught:

Connecting the Dots: ...you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

Love & Lost: He was fired by the company he started. He dropped the baton that was passed to him; he failed.. but to him "But it is really the awful tasting medicine which the patient needed it." Don't lose faith. This is the exact period that got him even more creative and was more sure of what he truly loves doing.

Death: He was diagnosed with cancer in 2004. "If this is your last day to live, you have nothing to lose. You are already naked, you have no reason not to follow your heart. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.. "

He ended his 15-min speech with his wish for himself and the graduates, "Stay hungry. Stay foolish."

Food for Thought.

My relections: I have a lot of noises, or "dogma" to sort out. I have done a lot of things randomly. Those are things I love. But are these dots gonna connect?

"What do you wanna do?" I have little inner voices murmering, but how can I be sure? Continue seeking? Dont settle? I aint 23 anymore. Gotta stop chasing rainbow and create one soon.

Friday, November 04, 2011

Anti Depressant

dinner time.
left office early today and bought two packets of fried carrot cake in dark sauce.
i dnt care, i need to staisfy my craving.
dinner at home - half bowl white rice with braised pork belly.
2 small whole crabs. steamed, fresh and sweet.
a soup bowl of yong tau fu and cai sim.
oh, the friend carrot cake, i finished half a pack.
and at the far end of the table, a bowl of pork lard deep fried into golden cubes. i picked a few and chew... i hope mum make dried mee pok tomorrow.

food is the best therapy. a simple sugar roll helps, a scoop of ice-cream or a good kaya toast with kopi.
but 再酱下去,体重不用量了。